I felt like Khayr had a bit of a commentary about Christianity with guilt and motivation. This quote sums it all up. "Then he throws you into self-mortification, so that you continue to strive and, for a while, to pride yourself upon your efforts, thinking that you are advancing or achieving something; but afterward you fall into despair and feel no joy." I have definitely felt this way before. There are times when I am consistently reading my bible, praying, and attending chuch, and I feel good because I am putting in the effort to grow in my faith. Yet, when I have one bad week by missing a few bible studies, or forgetting to pray regularly, I feel miserable because I can't live up to what God wants from me. We are sinners, we are bound to fall flat on our faces every once in a while, come on, we're only human, yet when I do I feel terrible guilty.
On the flip side, I do like how he comments on that "you think 'I love' and find no rest until you perceive that it is God who loves you and keeps you in the state of loving, and that this is the result of divine love and grace, not of your own endeavor." If we perceive that God loves us even though we are so not perfect, we can then love others who are not so perfect. For if God loves me, and I suck... I can love my parents, siblings, boyfriend, co-workers, and neighbors knowing that they will let me down, and I will love them anyways.
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